Apne Rang...

There are very few times in life that we come across people who love us.. who live for us.. & most of all who want us around in every small thing of their life.. But do we realy care for that every small moment of comfort love emotion or even a simple smile .. which we can bring in thr moments of day.. its almost like runnin after sumthin which is not ours & just letin go what is yours. But the fact i wonder rather makes me think quite often is that ..what i read..what i believe .. what i feel is this world just what it seems.. living with a clear heart & soul.. is gud but thr r times u just cant express it all.. i dont know how or why i just cant do it though i know it'll give me a perfect life..but what is that feeling tht stops me.. why do i even expect people to understand me.. do i need to change rules to my life.. rather practise then thougrly..ya i think.. but m so scared to start..or quite habitual to what i have.. then why do i crave for the real me.. to be open to this world..